celibates with intellectual pursuit

I came across  a site that listed out the scientists/philosophers/musicians who were celibates.

1. Pythagoras,
2. Plato,
3. Aristotle,
4. Leonardo da Vinci,
5. Spinoza
6. Newton
7. Kant
8. Beethoven
9. Herbert Spence

Inspiring list.
There should be more people that we don't know of.
The higher pursuit is a real hard pursuit.
First generation researchers of first generation musicians tend to put this heroic effort
and raise themselves to the next level.

People who don't have the benefit of accumulated effort of born in a family of musicians like me should put this effort. Hope i will find the strength to improve myself and not create obstacles for me.

half way there

I am completing 45 days tomorrow.
I only felt one serious episode of coming near to giving up.
Otherwise, i was able to keep my mind in celibacy.
Hope the rest of the 45 days will also be easy.

6 weeks completed.
Week 7 going on. 7 more weeks to go.
44days completed. 46 days to go.

guilty pleasure

 There is a phrase used called "guilty pleasure".
 It names the activity that a person does for pleasure, but feels guilt
 for doing it. "Enjoying without feeling guilt" is not possible after a
 certain point.
But why should we feel guilty?.
 We are not hurting anybody else.
 It just means that by over-enjoying we are just hurting ourselves.
 Its important to do it in moderation.

 There is no greater moral principle to follow than our conscience.
 If we follow some basic honesty in out external life, it is easy to
 recognize  the voice of conscience.
 If we feel right about doing something, we should do it with all the courage that
 we can gather-up. If we dont feel right and have negative feelings like guilt,
 it is important to not do it, however tempting it is.

  We need "inner strength" both to do something and to not do something.

End of week 5

Completed 5 weeks.  8 weeks to go.

Completed 35 days. 56 days to go.

completion of 30 days

I completed 30 days of celibacy yesterday.
I have done this before. My challenge is going from 30 to 60 days.
So i am entering in to the danger zone.
I am taking some precautions so that i can do this:

1. Sleeping with lights on: Sometimes when i am in half-asleep state, i masturbate due to force of habit. So I am thinking of sleeping with the lights on.
2. Strictly avoid porno and other stimulants.
3. i think of not taking in junk food or coffee after 5PM, I am thinking of having only my dinner and nothing else. 
4. I try to imagine/visualise the last post for this blog, that i will write in the end of 90 days. This is a major motivation for not doing it.

 If i can cross 60 days, then it will remain as a habit and i can easily cross the last 30 days.
God, Help me do this.

End of Week4

End of week 4.
28 days completed.
62 days more to go. 9 more weeks to go.

the effect of being busy

This week i was attending interviews and was busy.
Actually i didn't think much of sex.
Also i was feeling bit  insecure because of not being in a job.

I guess sex is not in your mind much when

1. you are terribly busy
2. when you  are feeling very afraid of your future.

Only when you relax, you think of enjoying.

When you have a goal and you are too focussed on your efforts and when your ego is too tied to the success and achievement of your goals, then sex is always a second priority.

End of Week 3

End of week 3. 21 days completed.

10 more weeks to go. 70 more days.