Wednesday, 3 October 2012

subconscious demons

yesterday, i had a dream.

In the dream, i was convincing to myself and  i was saying to myself that  "you need to
have an ejaculation for yogic-balance.  Your body requires that." etc
After that in the dream i began to masturbate by starting thinking of my favourite fantasy.
I was like half asleep and i began to actually masturbate.
Something changed and after that i stopped.

Only few days before, i thought it is going to be easy to complete the remaining 40 odd days.
But now i was almost in the verge of losing it.

This is an important thing to do for your Will-power.
If you decide something and then change your decision without executing the decision to
completion, we will never develop the muscle of will power.

Whatever it is i have to complete the 90 days. I pray to the Lord that he gives me the strength
to complete this.



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