Yesterday, i didnt get sleep as i was preparing for a test.
My body temperature was somewhat hot due to lack of sleep.
After i was done with the test, i came to my room in the afternoon. I felt a strong urge to masturbate , and worse, i even looked at some porno. I was thinking whether it is possible to get prostitutes who are mature older women. I was feeling guilty when i was looking at porno and thinking like this. I just wanted to get off and was frequently touching myself.
But i didn't want to masturbate as it will break my pact with myself. I just went to bed to get some sleep at 4.30 in the evening. I closed my eyes with all the porno images in head, and fantasies of hot milfs.
Due to my tiredness, i fell asleep immediately.
After 4 hours i woke up.
i feel better now.
All those perverted thoughts seem very distant now. It is like someone elses thoughts. The moment before 4 hours was very tempting, but not now.
We dont have to overcome a weak moment , but it can just be bypassed.
I feel a slight guilt for having those thoughts. Imagine the amount of guilt if these thoughts are acted on.
Anyways these thoughts are not important, they are not helpful, they dont make you feel good about yourself. Dont feed and reinforce those thoughts by looking in to porno or other sources.
Now again iam back to elevated thoughts, about being creative, helpful and being useful and contributing to the world. I am so glad i didn't masturbate myself.
My body temperature was somewhat hot due to lack of sleep.
After i was done with the test, i came to my room in the afternoon. I felt a strong urge to masturbate , and worse, i even looked at some porno. I was thinking whether it is possible to get prostitutes who are mature older women. I was feeling guilty when i was looking at porno and thinking like this. I just wanted to get off and was frequently touching myself.
But i didn't want to masturbate as it will break my pact with myself. I just went to bed to get some sleep at 4.30 in the evening. I closed my eyes with all the porno images in head, and fantasies of hot milfs.
Due to my tiredness, i fell asleep immediately.
After 4 hours i woke up.
i feel better now.
All those perverted thoughts seem very distant now. It is like someone elses thoughts. The moment before 4 hours was very tempting, but not now.
We dont have to overcome a weak moment , but it can just be bypassed.
I feel a slight guilt for having those thoughts. Imagine the amount of guilt if these thoughts are acted on.
Anyways these thoughts are not important, they are not helpful, they dont make you feel good about yourself. Dont feed and reinforce those thoughts by looking in to porno or other sources.
Now again iam back to elevated thoughts, about being creative, helpful and being useful and contributing to the world. I am so glad i didn't masturbate myself.
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